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BRACKETOLOGY UPDATE: Well, 3 out of my Final Four were correct, and somebody creeped up and passed me in the bracket by one point. My only hope is that UCLA takes it all the way. If that happens, I’m unstoppable. Oh well, it’s just 50 bucks, right?

Turned in my American Idol lottery ticket on Monday. (Also known as a song for the songwriter’s competition they’re hosting, check it out here.) I put the mp3 up here so you can check it out, let me know what you think. WARNING: It’s cheesy as crap. My Idol Lottery Ticket

I really don’t have anything major to blog about today, no earth shattering truth or interesting life events. In fact, life is very strange and difficult to understand right now in many ways, but I’m beginning to really understand what Augustine said when he paraphrased Paul: “That for those who love God everything works unto good, even sin.” I’ve always thought I knew what that meant, but lately I’ve had to open my hands and really accept that even in hurt and pain and all the negative emotions I don’t want to deal with, God is actually working things around to my good and the good of everyone who loves God, even to the people I’ve hurt along the way.

That’s really easy to say, and hard to understand, but for the first time in my life I’m realizing that pain isn’t inherently bad, and sin is never unforgivable. And not only is sin always forgivable, but it’s always being used for a greater purpose, being woven into the fabric of my life in a way that benefits me. That seems a little too prosperity-gospel for me some days, but it’s hard to deny. It’s in the Bible, pretty clearly written, God loves and cherishes me and is working all things for my good.

That’s it. Nothing more. But I think it’s the little things, the simple things, the things that little children understand and believe without any reservations, it’s those things that shake me to the core. I hope they keep shaking me, it’s a good place to be.